May 27, 2008

Pastor's Wife Poem

Pastor's Wife Poem

I thought the previous post would resonate with people. Thank you for emailing me. Here is a link to a poem that was sent to me. It really hits the nail on the head. The poem is too good not to keep.

Please do understand that my writing for the past few days is being driven by a deep sense of hurt and utter betrayal at the hands of some of the people we've served. Someone inside the church told me today that a few people feel they have to crucify pastors and their families when asking for a transition and for me not take it too personally. I fear that she may be right and that knowledge cuts me to the bone. Still, it is impossible to wish ill will upon a church that has people in it that I care about - even if they (for the most part) are acting as though they now hate me and my family. I've been warned that this attitude could go on indefinitely. I pray not.

There is this deep sense of loss that cannot be fixed. There is a longing and a wish that this is a bad dream from which I will awaken. It is as if my best friend had died but there is no grave upon which to place flowers. This is the depth of my sorrow right now.

I wrote a review of the church here http://knoxville.citysearch.com/review/9410692 in response to another review. The church we are leaving isn't any better or worse than any other church. Every church has its set of issues and there are some really good people there that can make you feel welcome. If you are in the area I would probably recommend trying it.

2 comments:

rcexam2007 said...

The link was not active to the poem. Hope the hurt has dissipated by now and that all is going well for you. rcj

Gayle said...

Change can be good. The hurt has dissipated and I think things are much better for me over here.